Post by Sawyer E Monroe on Mar 24, 2016 8:08:09 GMT -8
name: Sawyer Elliot Monroe
age: 24
species: human
"A well bred Southern lady smiles, Sawyer. She smiles when she's happy, she smiles instead of tears, and she smiles while reloading. Never forget that, dear. Life is going to bring more misery than this and you got to find a way to move with it and not drown in it. So, smile, it will dazzle the world while you figure it out"
That was the advice she got from her Grandma Monroe, when at aged 10, her father died and her mother left. Smile, because shit will get worse. She spent the next 13 years not really believing that times would get worse than being scared shitless and thinking you just weren't worth keeping. She was wrong. Worse came when her big brother Finn couldn't handle the PTSD anymore and ended it himself.
Sawyer didn't handle that with grace or a smile. She sold her house, left the only town she'd ever been in, loaded up all she could in the back of that classic charger and hit the interstate heading North. There were a lot of stops along the way. First, a few favors needed to be handled and that got her in a pinch of debt. Not money, no money would've been easier. She owed 'favors', the kind that made you question if there was ever going to untangle herself from it.
One job led to another and she ended up in Seattle. Vanity, a serious issue of the soul, had her feeling like her secrets were the biggest problem she'd have in trying to have a normal life. She was wrong...but the more she learned and the more she lived, Sawyer was of the opinion that normal might be highly overrated.
"Sawyer...life is going to be full of shit. Shit boyfriends, shit friends, shit situations. And there's going to be a time where you think it's not worth it. But it is...because there's going be that one...just one lover, one friend, one situation and it's going to make you believe the world is a magical place. You don't let go of that, ever. You might have to let go of places or people, but don't let go of that feeling. Because, once you let it go...it feels like you might not ever get it back, and that's worse than not knowing it at all. "